Wednesday, July 29, 2009
ari nie ak da rse c-hat ckit..but i'm still
not goin' 2 skul..mbe 2morrow la.. mr. garfield>_<
da la test next week..i mis skul a lot n
there's much 2 learn in a wip huuhu..
it does make me kinda craze..well,cm2 le kalu
da sakit..n now i kinda trauma ble nk g hsptal..
ari jmaat nie appoinment wif my doc.wua..i don
want 2 go..scary..well,spnjang ak sakit kt umah n
get reat well,i only got mr. garfield s my teman..
it was a present from my mom when i'm 11..it
really precious 2 me..coz i dont actually like doll n
such a thing..i also hav mr. teddy but i didn't really
spend tme wif it(he2..except tme mr. garfield xder la..)
well,when i'm started de kimo n take my medicine,i didn't
feel like bein' myself agaian..i don feel s graceful s b4..i dunno
why i like spacing out anytime wthout thinkin' anythin'..
sound scary n craze rite..but i jux feel like do it..mbe coz
it kinda lonly at home..or i'm actually still thinkin' of
de hsptal..urgh..nk muntah ble pk..harh~its been a long
tme i didn't express my feelin'(althought its jux a few day..=p)
p/s:hoping 2 get better althought i feel a bit shy goin' 2 skul after
my absent 24 a few day n i also puzzled de teacher..hi2..i don
tell dem bout my illness..i hate sympathy..well,i didn't get enought
sleep dis few day n i dunno why..opps..long speech lak..
Thursday, July 23, 2009
well,2day is my 2nd day in hosptal.
yesterday,i had taken my kimo.at 1st,i felt realy
nervous coz i'm still in trauma when i'm thinkin'
bout my last kimo in 2006..but 2day i'll still
have 2 take my kimo..n i don know when..i kept
have feelin' like wanna vomit..at least i could still
eat althought i don feel like eatin' it..urgh..i don feel
strong enought yet..2morrow i'll be out n get rest at home
it is long enought 4 me 2 stay in dis hospital..wearin' bothersome
needles at hand n felt dizzy when i walk..my food had
been control..my throat felt uneasy..but i'm stil hapy coz
abah will buy me a new hp..hm..but it really bored here..
i could only sleep,eat,watch tv,went 2 toilet n do a checkup
for a few times a day..xper..ni bru ckit..kte kne lbih sbar ag..
ni pon da ckup baik la der wireless..at least i can on9 althought
4 awhile..hm..nmpaknyer kali ni kne btol2 jga kc-hatn so dat
i could be hepi n cheerful s b4 n i hop lps nie bole la wt aktvti2
lasak cm dlu..i wanna dance,jump,run n do evrthing i want..so,i
juz nid a bit patience..chayok kinah..kambatte..
Monday, July 20, 2009
well,i jux want 2 tell a story of mine
when i'm still fom1..at dat time..
life iz kinda hard 4 me..i have 2 study
while i'm goin' on my kimo..erm,u know
rite kimo is 4 treatin' de cancer..but stil,i'm
lucky coz my cancer is stage 1..so,there's
nothin'g 2 wory..2 shorten de story..i'd made
all dat 12 kimo in a year..twice in a month n
i manage 2 end it in septmber..a week b4 ramadhan..
so,after dat tme..i live myself hapy,active n
cheerful life..its all going on jux fine 4 almost
3 years but dis year, de doctor had told me
dat my old illness had come back..n after a full
body scan,well,it jux had been detected in other
several places in my body part..hmm..i jux heard
dis from my parents..de doctor said..i might have 2
do de kimo again n they r goin' 2 put a tube
in my blood circulatory..so,dis time they wont
put de kimo pod thing..thanks god 4 dat coz
its realy painful 2 put it in my body..i could still
rmember how it feel..i juz can't 4get it..i hope this
time,de tube wont feel de same s de kimo pod..
(owh,ya Allah,be pity 4 me..let de pain feel less)